Issue: March 2010 Newsletter My Return of the Light
By Didier Perrouault
On February
26-28th I was in Paris for the "Return of the Light" workshop with Ya'Acov... Though I had known about this workshop
only at the end of 2009, I could feel now that I had waited for this moment all
my Life... and maybe even more ! ;-)
And
though the beginning was on Saturday morning, I could feel that this workshop
had begun for me much before that.
In a
more practical way my ‘conscious’ preparation began just a month before, in
Warsaw ("For All Our Relations" workshop), where I had become more
aware of an ancient and painful wound which physically was in my lower back… It
was so dark to me that I instinctively felt that the “Return of the Light”
could maybe help me… and even if I couldn’t tell what would happen on the French
annual event of Ya’Acov’s magical mystery tour I was at least hoping for healing…
and trusted that whatever would happen would be perfect…
Every
day for a month I called for Light, putting a candle on my Altar…
During
that month I experienced a clear need to let go ancient ways of behaving...
Based on that old dark wound... I experienced quite a number of occasions where
it was so obvious (sometimes caricatural!) that I had to change… I had to show
up and be true to my self (instead of forcing myself to things I no longer
‘needed’ nor wanted… so that the other people were “happy”). But I didn’t know
how to do!!!
And
on Friday that was the beginning.
Back
to basics. Re-connecting to the Earth inside me. To the Fire inside me, with
the Earth melting and that became a volcano... The Fire from the Earth...
Wow... I was it. I was it!!! That was so good... And even I sometimes felt a
lack of fluidity I knew that something was different….
After
that ‘Move’ session, as well as a resting night such as I hadn't had for sooo
long, now was a new day.
On
Saturday morning, during the warm-up session… things changed… As my brother and
friend Cyrill began to dance with me I felt a deep fragility in my body... We
began to exchange in movement... Exchange… and at a certain point, I just knew
that now was possible to let go and to leave the Ancient to the 'hands' of the
mimosa tree (it was at the center of the dancing room)… I could leave it to the
hands of the mimosa tree if I also sent Light…
That
was so intense, I just couldn't do but melt into tears and lay down. Tears.
Soft, deep, good tears, as an intense 'good bye', an 'adieu'... Liberation
tears.
When
I then got up back to movement, I didn't well realize what had happened but my
eyes just met the eyes of Ya'Acov who nodded at me. I knew I was now freed.
Strange
thing... But that was true. I could feel it deep inside my body. I could feel a
freedom of movement in my low back and hips which I had never felt. Never ever.
I was free. And now I could experiment, dance, integrate it so that I could
take care of that space where Light could now flow... I was free.
The
rest of the workshop was, for me, a series of experiences about the light that
could now be… how I could now dance… how I could take care about the Light… how
I could protect it… how I could expand… how I could be the elements with that
light… How I could ask for healing… with that light… call for guidance… with
that light…
The
workshop ended on Sunday… Sun-day… a day with Light.
During
that workshop, a wall collapsed. And let the Sun shine on it.
On Sun-Day...
So much energy was in me and asked to dance freely. So much that it was
impressive. Sometimes so much that I was a little bit afraid of what could
happen if I allowed myself to let it be and move and express.... In fact, no,
that wasn't it. My head was afraid, my body knew it was now possible. Now that
darkness let place to emptiness and freedom and pure light. Everything was now possible. I knew it.
Wow…
I am
so thankful…
To ... In fact, to my self (whatever odd it might be for the previous Didier to
thank me first ! ;-)), for attending that workshop and striving on my path
towards Light and to showing up, living and respecting the essence of my self.
I am so thankful to the Dancing Community, visible and invisible...
I am so thankful to Ya'Acov & Susannah, for the space they create and hold
is a secure magical transformation caldron that makes everything we need
possible.
I am also thankful to you who are reading this article, for you also dare to
make a step after one other towards your inner truth, towards your Light,
towards who you really are... The more we are to do so, the more beauty we
bring into this world, for ourselves, for our beloved ones and for all our
relations...
The next Return of the Light workshop is being held in Manchester 26th - 28th March. For more details and to book contact Elaine on +44 161 881 2644 i-am@elaineswords.com
The views expressed here do not necessarily represent the views of the School of Movement Medicine.
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